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A Big Ball of Friggin Awesome

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An Early Reflection [Dec. 15th, 2005|04:51 pm]
A Big Ball of Friggin Awesome
[mood |contemplative]
[music |Weezer- "Make Believe" Album]

Only one more final left to do: Tomorrow at 11:00 a.m. then thats it, end of the first semester. Right now, I'm the only one left in my dorm, everybody else is leaving to beat the ice storm thats going to happen later on. I'm glad that I get a chance to sit here and relax, think about things.

I've learned quite a few things, considering that it has only been one semester:

- I actually like to read, it's just a matter of finding the motivation to get past page one
- Taking up basic responsibilities that I was once too lazy to do: cleaning bathrooms, vacuuming on a regular basis, doing my own laundry, and taking out my trash.
- When I do go out of my way to be social, I can meet a lot of interesting people, and all it really takes is a simple "hello"
- Babies Can't Beat Daddies, but sometimes, Babies are preferable to daddies

But most importantly:
-I've learned that I am self-sufficient and that I know that when I leave here, I'll be able to make something of myself. In high school, you are coddled and shielded from extraneous responsibilities, but as soon as the tether goes away, you really amaze yourself with how independent you can be. I think of the connections I made to wmmr through my classes and through basic e-mails. I took a day with absolutley nothing planned the day before and on my own I was able to create an amazing experience at wmmr... there were no phone calls from the rents or previous plans made by a school to make it happen... I made my own good fortune and for the first time in my life, I orchestrated an independent day.

My friends have been and will always be there for me. Regardless of the petty fights that we have, understand that we've grown up together and even when our relationships and family lives have been rough, we've always had that second family to go to, our weekend safe haven. Don't ever forget that. I still expect a full cast of "best men" on the day that I get married, whenever/wherever the hell that may be.

It has also been nearly 9 months since I've met one of the most amazing people in my life. I don't like to rub my good fortunes in anyone's face, but I want to give credit where credit is due. In a time period where there has been little consistency, between adapting to college, to my family moving, and various social dillemas, she has been caring, understanding, and loving. Words don't do it justice, but without you Alix, I wouldn't be the person that I am now. I support you in anything and everything that you should decide to do and I will be there the same way you've been there for me.

I love my life... 2005 has been amazing to me. To everyone involved, whether on a daily basis or on a seldom AIM "hello", thank you.
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